Trips down to school had been quite often lately, I'm sure Ms Huda and Ms Koh are tired of seeing me. Not as if I wanted to, I tried to hide as much as possible. Cold day, really. Pullovers are not enough to dispell the coldness. Especially sitting at my old spot from 11 till 6.


I had it fairly good, despite some jester who's out to bite and piss my bones. I hope Muni and Anna could make me proud tomorrow. Apparently someone isn't happy with me because I turned down tickets to the match. Go study PHYSICS lah.


Hunnerd fitty mate. Yeehaww (cowboy style). Plus the allowance every week, I'll be rollin' in pounds.



Lights will guide you home.
And ignite your bones.
And I will try to fix you.

So let me try to fix you.

ofblack&white
10:14 PM

My biological clock was somewhat repaired by the Maker. So now I can happily by 8.30 am. Does wonders to me.


Settled some bills with Hong Leong Finance, had a nice breakfast at BK, and all this before TEN. Quite a change to be filled with the morning freshness and whatev. Muni came for Math and annoyed me by singing like Syahril (with the corny facial expressions and all).


Late lunch behind the house and we bothered a good many fat cats. We bullied a black cat with rolls of tummy fat. And chased a vegetarian cat.


I'm mighty tired, and wee bit pissed. Haha I know we shouldn't disagree with fate but fuck you for making it tough these days. Rah.


You may not know it, but you mean the damn world to me.

ofblack&white
10:12 PM

Sentimentality is one thing I'm never short of. GAH.

Going to be a VERY LENGTHY entry so don't say I didn't warn you. Wouldn't be of any interest unless you were a TKsian or a pervert trying to stalk me and know me more (like wtf).

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I've been reading my old testimonials from Friendster. Redundant I know. I was momentarily swept away by the memories of '00 till '04 (yes get the violins out now). I just felt TK somewhat enriched my life in no way other institutions did. Like I met quirky people with fucked up attitudes (sorry Faris but your name comes to mind), shy people who invariably turns out to not be (mainly the NP lot), really sweet people (RachPoo, Michlove, we have them in abundance back in TK), and those downright weird ones (Yongming!). Ok well. Besides exposing me to the various characters, the teachers had also been supportive (this does NOT include Ada Tan and the team of Math department who threatened me to drop A Math which I got a 3 for. HA. And Ada Tan for calling me NADIRAH). Much lessons learned. (:


But anyhow those four years seemed like a distant past. Haha. Junior in sec 1, too quiet for anybody's good. God, I could be labled a nerd please. Sec 2 hadn't improved much, though we had our first taste of politiks amongst my group of (innocent petty chinese) friends (: Work attachment at NYP, had the feel of the TK Band booming and pwning the National Stadium. The first friend-leaves-friend-for-other-friend situation. LOL. First love too. I'm still geeky at this stage with ponytail and specs as thick as a blonde's skull. And having her granduncle as a malay teacher to boot.


Ooh rebellious years now. Cut my hair short, moved into a new circle and vulgarity spewed out of my mouth at the rate of knots. Music became my lover and got caught up to it. I had the best (in terms of being roudy, rebellious, doubled up with the inability to hand in assignments punctually). I remembered old Mr Chew and his favourite Cartesian and modulus. Barry Lim. Had fun playing cards all day long and getting it confiscated. Met many different people (those mats type like Din Shuk Mat Kiki etc) who were always always nicer and cornier than they seem. Huda just joined the class from Ngee Ann


OH. I had my Chiangmai trip. That's phenomenal. Jamie, the sleepingbag snatcher. (: Jien and I spitting watermelon seeds away. Keng Jien and I having problem with Anak Ali (Alison) haha and Jeff grumbling all the way. Then the three of us out to bball always. Crying together when we left the place. Haha! Hundred Bottles Of Beer while we dig a pond. Frisbee! How Jien and Keng were pulling me away from freebee counters in some big supermart and us three soccer in there. Vin and Roy with the broken door. Hectic night with Ms Somethsometh(I forgot his name) and Tan Kee Hoe screaming. Me hugging Neung and Hoartie before we left. OH. SWOON OVER THAT THAI HOT THAI BOY.


Sec Four at its best. Alot of class politiks (think Dewi) and skipping lessons for games of pool and bowling(where the bunch of us got caught and Ivy cried LOL). Yongming and rockets, Shengyi with shares and money. Haha. I had my second love then oh wells. Had the buddies, Zel Farn Ivy Qing Shid and Huda (who according to Jien laughed like a... horse. Ok keep it to yourselves). Keng Jien Khay being closest. Taidee in English class (and throwing humongous paper balls around). Khay always saying she loved Andrew (now she doesn't and look where she went haha). Them bothering about me being short. Me bringing cakes to school with those scavengers eating it faster than you can say 'eat'. Haha snake and ladder in the most annoying fashion on Qing's desk. Dennis and two broken arms due to bicycle accident; Faris, his broken arm and the five-minute laugh (and his eternal feud with Mariam). LOL. Dennis Kh fight with Dennis ended up with a nice bloody nose. Shengyi arguing with Tiger. The Autonomous Status thing (where I met Qis and get to know her), getting in the middle of NP politiks when I'm not even from there.
Meet my beloved godsister Mazni.


Netball and so many sports 'competitions' with the neighbouring class, though we quite often end up winning (even with Dewi's solo-ness and Ivy's clumsiness). Huda and her potato ankle, haha! Ivy's inability to catch a ball though she defends like a madwoman. Catcallings and all when celebrations are on, haha and jeering. I remember Su with a skirt and the other male counselors dancing to Beyonce's hit. Oh. Nureena and her bizarre hairstyle. Matin and I slapping each other because we couldn't believe we've got A2 for Malay on the first try. Lol Jien having to carry a nice pink balloon when both of us went to Best Denki. We deflated it in there to avoid embarassment. Oh! Me losing my temper at Din and throwing every single book and swearing every single curse that i know while he continued to stoke my temper. God haha. Ooh. Bothering juniors are fun.



O Levels, leaving with tons of memories. Tangled love life and all HAHA.


Teo KK, I'm sorry for the misgivings in English. 'Tiger' Ong and Sir Juf and Mustafa and Koh. Wonderful DnT people (: Plus Yeo Bee Leng and armpit hairs and (according to Faris) tits. Ms Puja and her... boobs with Ms Seah attempting to teach the class but no one gives a damn. LOL. Halilah and her threats (YOU BETTER HAND UP YOUR HOMEWORK OR YOU'LL COUNT THE LEAVES OUTSIDE). Mrs Quek! Love that woman, oh and Mrs Tay also. Her sarcasm never fail to wonder. Juliana Goh, we're sorry that we hid in the technical block when we're suppose to be running 2.4. Ms Sri, sorry if people like Faris liked to take photo of your ass. To Mr Chew if we made fun of you doing your 'follow me' and your enthusiastic modulus sign. Ada Tan, thanks for your support and believe (rolls eyes) in me. But it turned out to be the best. Oh, and to the Discipline Mistress Mrs Lim, thanks for catching me and my coloured socks. Just because I love them with a passion doesn't mean you could ask me to dispose of them all the time.


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Ok. End of cartwheeling into the past. 'Tis fruitful if I look at it. (: I really miss everyone and the boisterous environment there. I can't sleep, so might as well. I swear whoever reads all that really have the patience.

ofblack&white
1:09 AM

AH. My favourite Belgian SEPARATED WITH HER HUSBAND. How shocking is that can. I thought she and Pierre-Yves made the cutest couple. 'Tis sad a news for Justine. I hope she can make it through the next tourny in France.



Anyway I'm planning to pig out this Sunday. I've been out almost every day of the week and I think a break is in order. Me in a longsleeve pullover with batik pants and blanket all over me, lying down with a good book and the Lays BBQ. Imagine that. Such heaven. Minus bothersome males around the house.

This song reminds me of you, annoying it is.


I had a nice chat with Syahril yesterday. Apparently he's out for count during the weekends. In his words, "I feel like a prostitute after a hard Saturday night's work."



And happy belated to Hamzah. (:

Kat Kat, when are you going to call me!

ofblack&white
12:02 PM

What a night. Losing bets is one thing, but not getting my songs is another bigger sin. Plus waiting for a wretched bus for 45 minutes. In the rain. Blah. I think it just isn't my night. Tan Kian Hong, I hope the next time we liased you and I won't be d/ced case I cry again.



Rita Skeeter just talked to me about tabloids. Haha no I mean our Reetha the Comedian. She forgot to eat dinner and she's eating now. Whaaat. Haha.


Vincent passed his A Math test and I can't be any happier/prouder for him. (:


I hope he knows his limits, and would stop bothering me before my nerves frayed.
Really.


Nice cold night with the pattering rain. And here I am thinking of what if's and such. I should read and finish up Big Bad Wolf.
Till then, wan an love.

ofblack&white
12:08 AM

Then softer than
A piper man.
One day, it called to you.
And I lost you to
The Summer Wind.

ofblack&white
1:47 PM

Wild wild wet. Not that water theme park; Singapore. I swear I could've been blown off by that gust. My brother's Nautica sweater kind of saved me from being a person trapped in the Ice Age.

Ok mad exaggeration but I never have liked the cold unless I'm decked out full gear.


My longtime-never-see cousin came to granma's. Aqil is SO tall and mascular and tanned and still short of hair. He has abs! My God, a fourteen year old with abs! Not sounding peadophilic but wow. I've a way to motivate Nur to do Math properly but it's going to deplete my savings at this rate. Haha!


Bball cancelled due to the rain. Spoil eh? Pray this coming Thurs isn't going to pour.


It's quite a torture to bathe in the morning regardless of the water heater. Anyway the sweetest thing I've heard today was
"see your face kinda brightens up my day."
HAHA. So sweet can. And I just had to snap a most annoying scrunched up face and send. Nice right.


Just when I told Nush I rarely get cramps, my tummy felt as if Muhammad Ali and Tyson had punched it simultaneously. Argh.

Ham's out of jungle and back tomorrow. (:



Ah. Crazy signals, like traffic lights. Save me. To fall out then fall in again with a loud sickening THUMP (wrestling style). ) :

Panther Fire to cheer me up.

ofblack&white
9:58 PM

So I head to school for, well maybe fun and some Math-teaching and maybe to find potential 'clients'.


Chatted some with Ms Huda and went outside library. Now the school have an abundance of those wooden bench-and-tables. Elf asked me about vectors, wrong person to ask but I somehow managed to do. Like, how come last year I can't? Had more of that nice yoghurt. Gentlemanly enough not to treat me right? And stupidly waking me up in the morning with the question "Eh how the hell you off the mp3?!" Elf doesn't even know how to hold the umbrella. It turned upwards!

And I'm getting better at folding.



Joined Alli Annete Mayyee and Khai for a while in the aquarium then head back up to help Mun abit. She have nice funny friends. Ain said I curse politely. Like what?? Haha. Went Pizza Hut with Muni while she regailed hilarious stories.


Sims2 fun fun. (: I'm probably basketballing with Keng tomorrow. Yahay. But means I've got to wake up at 8. Bugger.


Oh. Joke of the day:

Rachel Wong Shuli walked from the busstop with this fairly aged lady. So before hugging Rachel I had to be polite and asked, "Is this your MOTHER?" And she hushed me. After I hugged her she scolded me and said "Ass, that's my teacher lah. I don't like her and you can call her my mother." LOL can. i feel, in the very used singlish word, PAISEH.


Someone's BLUSHING. Haha I won't tell Mun.

ofblack&white
10:09 PM

A good but physically draining day, with an equally bad and emotionally draining night. I feel lonely.


Anyway 'tis the first I saw Nushrah faint, in quite an alarming way. Lol. Nothing of much interest after, 'sides the fact that my elf loved her present, despite colour. I hope my dear, you'll use BOTH instead of only one. Just because the other is slightly more expensive you can be biased right. I BETTER SEE YOU WEAR THE RED THINGY ONE DAY. FLASH TO ME.


Ah. Talking to Jiamin kind of cheered me up. Haha Wong Shuli can't you just tell me instead of asking me to ask the woman why you're pissè with him. But quite a good talking, been long since we've verbal-sparred (where I always win naturally).


No Ili. Musn't wet them pillows tonight hun. Brighter day tomorrow. Am just amased by how some beings could ruin your entire day with a simple deed. Oh, and possibly ruin the next too. Whatever. Don't want impose anything upon people.


Mat made me smile with a crude joke.

There's this couple with 5 kids. The husband always joke with his wife and called her mother of 5 cause she's shy about her age. So one day at a party he kept saying about it to their friends, so she got fed up. He said, Don't drink too much mother of 5. She said, I won't father of three.


(Be polite and laugh)

Good night.

ofblack&white
11:54 PM

Travelling's the word for the day.


I had to drag myself out bed by nine and go Parkway to get Nur her assessment books. Quite glad to go Popular actually, for a bookshop (a classy one at that. Beats the hell out of MPH) called Harris is just next door. Went into the silly frenzy of course. It's not huge, but its sufficient enough. Got the books I wanted (hence I invest 14$ on a book). They're having 20% discounts on adult fiction. I love!


Went to gran's and I did all I could to not lose my patience. Haha teaching primary schoolers are very very taxing, that's for sure. But worth it still. I helped my grandad put ointment to his back. Like how I used to (:


Waiting for the bus 45 after gran's I saw a little KC girl (KC primary shifted to that area) pacing towards the bus directory and looking across and worried. So I sat next to her (no not peadophilic you asses, just helpful) and asked where she going. She blowed me away with her English. I got to hand it to KC, they really know how to cultivate good speakers. Perfect marks for oral I reckoned!


Had tuition and pay (: Vincent's mom always serve me drinks and the occasional cake. Chocolate brownie cake today was fantabs. HAHA. We had a small magic session after Math. He really does improve, and I'm proud of him!


Long journey home made me think of an old friend (more like sister) who became nothing more than an acquaintance, or maybe a nobody.


Someone's killing me for this but Chelsea lost last Saturday. (: If you ever disturb me publicly about the dream I swear I'll chop you up put you in a box and throw you down Singapore River. Really. In an attempt to be a girl, I hope you'll wear whatever I'm going to give you.
Stupid elf.


Although we are of different religion and your beliefs are not akin mine, I'll pray for your well-being and hope everything turns out fine. And God wouldn't be cruel to put you with the one you never love. So be strong! The shennanigans your dad put you Linette Daryl and your lovely mum will end and he'll be the one suffering. *Hugs you*



I know He is fair to not bring upon unhappiness to one of my dearestest.


Ah. I'll finish up marking and off to bed. Long day ahead I should think.

ofblack&white
9:08 PM

it's been a while. I've got things in my mind that I needed to clear. Anyway I've gotten myself one more student, which is good. Which means an additional 120$ to the income.
Which is good.


Anyway I think I made you worry on Friday night with the most disturbing messages that were only meant to scare and dig jibes. Go to my private. It says something. And thank your stars you didn't buy whatever you want today.


Pass's the same, only red. LOL. I know. Creative huh. I hope,you get my hint. If not. Well. =.=


I got visitors from afar (well, one of them) and I taught them Math. We called MacD since them being ravenous beings are about to faint from exertion. Snippets from the conversation my MUM has.

Muni: (Reading out orders to the Mac person)
Ili: MUAHX MUAHX MUAHX
Operator: (Laughing) Your DAUGHTER is cute.
Muni: (While operator is supposedly away) ILI SHE CAN HEAR YOU YOU ASS.
Operator: (I think she's shocked but laughed anyway. How can a mom call her daughter an ass??)
Muni: (agrees with many Ps and Qs. Bieng unnaturally polite)
Ili: HUGS AND KISSES EX EX EX EX (while mom is speaking)
Operator: No wonder your kids are so polite! (on Muni's excessive use of Ps&Qs). Anyway we have speacial for Happy Meal! (and proceed on to explaining whatever it is while Mun sheepishly agreed).



Ok do I sound like a kid here or what? Never mind. Sigh.


I want to get a Fossil wallet to match my watch and some cds. And definitely pay some old debts. Youtubing music videos is a wonderful way to pass time. And I especially Missy Elliot's and Beyonce's videos. Hot dance moves, hot people.


Marking Malay papers is also another source of income. And I will gladly do it. Easy job, just minor heartaches at incomprehensible sentences. But otherwise ok. (:



Save up to get a scooter by end of the year! So I can vroom vroom around. With that, another thing to get done by end of this year is to pass my car and motorcycle license at one go. Green light! Since the Parents sponsor.

Good night. Dreamless sleep please...

ofblack&white
7:36 PM

Horrid.


God, please let me sleep. I felt as if I need ten volumes of Oxford Unabridge tumbling on my head (add a Merlion in) before I could accomplish such a simple yet unbelievably tough task. Contradictory is it not.


I am a loser. I swear I saw that coming.


What else do you describe a demented 18 year old up at 0234 hours marking SCRIPTS(which had to be annoyingly malay) just to bore herself to death so that she could sleep?
Precisely, loser.


The internet failed me time and time again. Such disappointment, especially since Jieyan wanted to send over X&Y and offered to read his incredulously boring notes just so I would bore myself to tears.



To top it off, the compositions are about SINGAPORE RIVER. I know patriotism is a valiant characteristic, but try reading twenty odd scripts containing the same recycled words (with spelling and punctuation errors of course). An exceptionally trying task. But it work wonders for insomniacs.


Cheery at 0240 hours right now. Whatev.


Ili spends n nights staying up till three.The probability of her sleeping early for a day in a month(30 days) is 0.04.
a) What is the probability of her staying up for at least 25 days in a month?
b) What is the least number of days Ili have to stay up late if the probability of her sleeping early for at most 5 days exceeds 0.98?

Damn. I've been doing much Binomial Distribution with Anna that I've been fucked too bored to even come up with it. Yes, the word loser again floats hazily in your mind. Don't deny it.


If I could jab morphines or about any drug available I would, if it helps lull me into sleep. Yet again, what does sleep offer, if not dreams that haunts and taunts.



If I could be thankful about academic curriculum, it's the fact that they exhaust me to my very organs and never fail to bring Sleep.


On second thought, I could do with a magnetic mattress or two.
I miss you so ) :

ofblack&white
2:32 AM

I don't know really. It's quite a grumpy day for me. High time to blame PMS no?


Kinda want to lock myself up in a room and stuff, but work beckons. And it doesn't really help that every damn time I stepped down bus 45 it will pour like no tomorrow. I don't believe in jinx and shit but this is getting on my nerves.


Ah. Work also forced me to plaster a smile all over and pretend the world's fine. Maybe it is, maybe it's not.

Whatever it is I hope a gust will blow away this grey cloud hovering over me.
I'll rewatch my ellusionists videos for joy.
But I know I won't really be able to sleep tonight. The dream was too real I almost imagined it happening.

And it still disturbs me. Oh well.
Good night.

ofblack&white
10:40 PM

The habit of waking up at 630, do morning prayers, sleep and up at 830, then decided its too fucking early to be up and sleep again till 10 is irking me. I hate this habit of being... sigh. I don't know. What happened to me always being up by 7. And waking at this such hour will always give me that grogginess (not freshness) and headaches that anyone can do without.



Talking about sleeping, I had a very disturbing dream. Where you came alive inside once more. Gosh I thought I'd have forgotten about the feelings. Apparently not. This annoys me. Alot.



) : Elf have to study for tests so there goes my free coffee.


I have the impulse to go places today. But I doubt that's possible, seeing how I haven't even done my chores. When i woke up I want to go places where we've been, far away, near, wherever. I even feel like going to Jurong East.
Or Parkway. Can see Qinglin WORK (no pun intended). LOL.


Know that I can't get over you
Cause everything I see is you.

ofblack&white
10:27 AM

I think I'm moving too fast, and a step back is in order.


Marking Malay scripts could be my new source for amusement. For example, a kid named his character Hamil. Sounds harmless? In Malay, it means pregnant. Gosh, imagine calling your child PREGNANT.


Enough about being amused. Anyway I fulfilled my wants for the day. And I spend relatively little. The Girl Guide in me will be proud that I'm thrifty. LOL. I used to spend on every pretty item I saw. HAHA. ILI IS GROWING UP.


So for tomorrow? Chicken chop with rice? ((: If all goes well, lunch at a cheap place with Elf (if you're free, but I doubt so, since three tests plague you on Friday). I still haven't gotten my coffee (gives sad face).


From my correspondant (LOL) 18 year ones turned up today. Hurrah! It looks good for soccer now (: I am happy. I forsee a good future in SRJC girl's soccer.


Everything is fine and dandy, especially when I got the latest Mansell book. But right now, I think Fiona is moving too fast for me to catch a breath.
Got to step back.


And I pray I can sleep. Disadvantage of no-school: I couldn't get tired enough to knock me out.
Good evening!
And KAT. Call me soon, preferably tomorrow or even tonight!

ofblack&white
6:53 PM

Morbid. I think that went through my cousin's head (if my darling twelve year old knows what is morbid) when she read the algebra problem sums I carefully lovingly crafted.


"Titanic can hold x number of passengers. If half of the passengers drown, how many, in terms of x, survived?"

Or

"The Pussycat Dolls have 8 members. If 1/4 of them is fired because they cannot sing, how many Dolls are left? The PCDS decided to hire y more girls. If two of them committed suicide during a photoshoot, how many girls, in terms of y, are left?"

My favourite was

"Brad Pitt had two children. If he adopted two more children, how many children will he have now?
Angelina Jolie decided she does not like x of the children. If she sold each children she do not like at 40$ each and made 80$ from selling, how many children did she sell?"


Ya I know what you are thinking but this is Math made fun light and easy. (:


Unpredictable weather brought out unpredictable behaviour. It was such a pleasant night yesterday I decided to take a long walk and bother fat cold cats. I slept over my grandma's yesterday; watched the trollop-like aunt strut around with her mended Ferragamo pumps in her bath towel, awed at my grandad's love for So You Think You Can Dance, had fold-the-umbrella session (I did it no less than four times and managed to perfect it) and bother pretty kittens with sad faces.


I love sleeping over for the sole reason of being able to sleep before the clock chimed one. Oh and the wonderful company too.


I reached my goal of carrot cake yesterday so lets make a new one for tomorrow: Borrow cliched story books and have yong tau fu for lunch.


I had a rare talk with elf just now (because for the first in a millionth conversation we actually clocked in less than half hour. Say WOW).
A MAKEOVER IS A MUST IN MARCH I DON'T CARE.


Dear God; Please please please let Vincent pass his qualifying test. I'm worrying the way only mothers do.


And dear Allah the Almighty One, please don't make my resolve sway.
Thank you.

I'll try to sleep now.

ofblack&white
9:49 PM

It's an awfully lazy Sunday. Hot Nestum in hand, with a good book to read and nice warm blanket covered chin to toe. Decked out in my ITALIA longsleeve (my brother had to wear the short sleeved so now we look like annoying twins) and nike tracks. Like I told Hamz, quite ready to hit South Pole.


The sky isn't so red, I take it as a good sign. I want to eat carrot cake tomorrow. My honey called today so I'm probably not blessed with your company tomorrow (run TOGETHER ok). So I'm suppose to say good things, since you've been at the end of my snides. I did a classic double take when I read the sweet message. It's hard to imagine something nice from you. (: I'm not insulting ok!


There's many things I wanted to do still but Time disallow. Ok, goal for tomorrow; Eat carrot cake and be merry. I want to sign up for a course.


I had been assigned to do the impossible; to mark malay compositions. Whatev.


Every passing day I miss you less. Which is good.
Shouldn't see you often after all.

ofblack&white
9:42 PM

Gosh, the earlier post was so random and painful to the eyes, I deleted it. In bed is where I need to be right now, since I have religious class tomorrow (means YAY I've got to see my little tiny one and the blackasnight one ((: ). But I can't. I'm suppose to be singing songs till I fall asleep but apparently all that happened was rain and rain again.


) : I WANT A FRAP STILL.


Math is really a joy to teach. Had the elf making noise at Differential Equation, covered Functions, Quadratics Linear Law and Coordinate Geom with Vincent. He also have the love for magic. (:

"My God! Vectors can make me go mad! I always calculate wrongly or copy the wrong vectors!"
HA to you. Since you annoyed me with your random 'huhs' and complained that I write and think slow and NOT WANTING TO TREAT ME I added something nice and sweet for you. Oh ya, if your neck hurts, go break it, you won't have a problem with it anymore. LOL. Don't get hurt like us women do. (: I hope Chelsea lose, with Lampard's leg broken.
(Better stop before you spew your vulgarities at me.)


AH. If only I'd a kingsized bed I could endlessly roll the night away, like I love to. Books entertain, but at the rate I read, I need to borrow the National Library. My only solace is the net, which disconnected me every second. But well, life has it's up and down.

My CNY friend likes to praise herself. Maybe I really should get her to don the chinese character so I could flip her upside down for goodluck.


Ah. The night have a certain effect on me. Lull yet energise me.
Especially with Mononoke Hime Medley and Ed Huckeby's By The Rivers Of Babylon playing. Yup, definitely a good night.


"I'm not alone, but that doesn't mean I'm not lonely."

ofblack&white
12:24 AM

16 out of 21 turned up, good response. Though I do not know what went through Mr Desmond Lee's head when he had them running coupla rounds up down left right of blocks in school; sadistic alternative to the unavailable outdoors.


It's a rather soggy day, and the sky is still red. I wonder if everyone's snuggled right up to their chins at home with a nice cuppa milo/Nestum.


I never liked him around home, never knew why. Maybe that ego clashed with mine. Maybe I'll talk to you about him so you'll know the reason behind the bitterness and hate.


Cold day. I badly want to talk to someone at this hour for the house is quiet. Ho well. I should start on a new book today. I finished Self-Made Man and nearly done with The Color Purple. Sleep is still a stranger in the night.
So am I.

ofblack&white
12:24 AM

The sky cries the day and night, infinite raindrops the size of children fall. Hark, I hear the frogs croaking like a choir.


I don't know to feel pleased, or annoyed with the rain. Maybe pleased. My arms and hands were tied up, so an umbrella cannot fit in anywhere. In the rain I went. Squelched went my footwear.


Bus ride to AMK in the rain was mighty pleasant; the panes fogged with the cold, pitter patter constantly and the occasional slide of the water like teardrops. I had just heard the most idiotic jest at the void deck of 545:


Me: It's windy here.
Elf: Oh really?
Me: Ya! The cats are so cold. They're huddling together. Poor thing. If I've a jacket I'd give them to keep 'em warm.
Elf: Just pour hot water lah, sure keep them warm.


Like someone could not differentiate cats and cup noodles. OH WELL.


It was terribly mind draining, jumping A Math topics like hobbits and then off to Binomial Distribution, from 1700 till 2030 hours.


I just finished King and the Clown and that show deserve 6 stars (out of five)! It's different from your 24/7 soppy Korean dramas that got you crying just because the hero/heroine contracted some God known disease or whatev. Nice show!


I was just saying just now that hey, it's nice talking to you and I swear I could do that as an occupation.


I'm tired and lonely tonight, in the cold. Yaya someone's getting emo but it's allowed. Maybe, just maybe?

ofblack&white
1:01 AM

A terrific day, is today! ((: I met lots of dear loved people that made me smile inside out.




First was FARHANA. Oh God been looong since I've clapped my eyes on this lady. She didn't change much, save for the sharper tongue. Sense of humour still intact! Yes! ((: We took out BTT together, and together we PASSED. YAY. Saw Deslim, still tall and lanky. He went to take his FTT. WOW. Finally I saw MrYoong(aka Ivy's longlasting boyfriend. most of her's didn't last through 3 months). Most importantly, Jieyan was just around the corner for his driving. I kind of missed him and the corny things we do. Well.


Went school! Heiwai was on the same bus as me. Then chatted till the gate, where I saw my juniors. I am, as always, very glad to meet them. We managed to get 14 yearones!


I played some badminton. Missed that sport. Rachel is evil. Then I saw someone and Huiqi had to tell me 'hypocrite'. Yahyah I know. =.=


OH. And the red-haired chiobu (get ready the puke bag) came by too (: We went hall for chats with Rachel and friends. Haha I am embarrased that she saw the full force of soccer girls. Them kicking, screaming, chasing, shouting, unbashfully introducing themselves. Haha all in the concourse. Hectic man. Your's truly got hit in the knees by Huiqi. So pro right, joined soccer then can kick and aim so well (rolls eyes).


I loved the lecture theatres now. They looked so damn professional, complete with digital clock. It's beautiful. Sigh. Went up to A2-5. They changed the tables to those circular ones. Apart from that everything is similar (: We sat ourselves and talked of old times, memories gone but never forgotten.


Watched the girls train. The times of trainings also went through my head like old blackandwhites. Really missed them. Whilst having the small one to accompany me, and still continue to talk all the time. Haha. I hope one day we do get to meet up with every single one in the class no? She couldn't stay for dinner so I just sent her out.


Had PizzaHut! With Huiqi, Huda, Sya, Sha, and Cess. Sha and Cess are nice people (: Very great sense of humour that tickled the mind. We played lame table games that everyone get except for Sha, although being a bung/butch, was quite reduced to tears because of sheer frustration. So funny! Cess is like a 12 year old trapped in an 18 year old body. Cabbed home with Huiqi and Sya.


Really a lengthy entry, no? I really like today, I met people of the past, present and future. Spent enjoyable time with people I care and love. So it's really a marvellous day, apart from the slight limp.


Haha I think I teased my dear (blanched) too much nowadays. Must cut down before she really land me a square one. Go do your homework and CALL ME when you free, yes!


Good night world. I love, and will always love.
A melody I start but I will complete.

ofblack&white
10:09 PM

What a day, yesterday is. The BM who was suppose to train me(but didn't due to unforseen circumstances) was from MJ and TKG and is 19 years old. LOL. I had quite a day, meeting people. Known funny quirky characters briefly and a talk to attend to. Clarify here and there. I've decided to give it ago, despite my parent's wishes.



I had trying moments chatting on the phone to one of the most deaf people I've met while I was on the train. Yaya this doesn't mean I'm not greatful for your company. Had tuition AMK. I'm acutely embarrased by my inability to TEACH angles in a circle. God. I hope he'll do fine with his math test today. Big one on Monday!


It's just two weeks (or not even) into the New Year and CONGRATS, I sprained my ankle while getting down the bus. HA. Someone could even laugh and said I don't know how to walk right lol. I was torn between crying and laughing (must have been quite a sight for people) so typically I did both. Hobbling home seemed painfully familiar. My brother had me watch Star Wars Episode 3 and it's quite entertaining. I had that hard time of sleeping since the leg diabled me to roll and roll and roll on bed the way I love.


My test today! Anyway my internet yet again died. So I had to resort to the brother's laptop. Hurr.

ofblack&white
11:41 AM

I had my first primary school student tuition. In conclusion (I know it is irnoic but)
I'm better off teaching secondary school students because it's easier. Hell it is. Hard to teach basics, hard to explain the foundations that had been etched inside.


ANYWAY enough about work lah. Went to Naz's to collect my dued tarts. Them are a heavenly bunch! THANK YOU AND PLEASE (ask your mum to) MAKE MORE. (:


My journey home was filled with much laughter and idiocy, frustrations and heart pain (all in ONE phonecall). It made me feel smarter. But it's quite hard, talking to someone with Alzheimer's (24/7 forgot whatever you're talking). I screamed at the phone for a few times while the elf laughed away. HOW ANNOYING.


My book is in the process of delivering. In five minutes time! Yay. Haha. I have to sleep early, like by eleven tonight. Early up tomorrow is what I have to be, packed day, what's with training at Venture.


Good night love (:

ofblack&white
8:26 PM

Boredom drives me to blogging. Haha I think it's quite fun to type nonsensicals and tried to make sense of everything after that. Dumb I know. But how I spend my time is none of your concerns (:


I ended up not being able to sleep (yet again) but I had company, still, albeit a different one. Till 2 am I think, with Michlove on MSN. It's been freaking eons since I've last seen this friendofsixyears.


I went to my paternal grandma's for dinner, plus dessert and everything else. I've gotten quite a few books! Happy girl I am. Happier still since someone bought me SELFMADE MAN. I've been wanting that books for YEARS (ok not, maybe months).


Life's getting greater by the moment, apart from minor glitches. I had better appreciate it before it's taken away again and I'm left bawling my eyes out like a little child.


I try, try, try, but I can't get around the truth.

ofblack&white
2:35 PM

Shit (to the power of 324587).


I could be hanged for repeating offence. I slipped, I admit I slipped two years ago. And I land with a big BANG and it bruised me like fuck. And now it happened again, the same way, the same ohmyfuckithappenedwithoutmeknowing way.


Why. I won't ask anything else but, God, why.

And for once, sleep comes willingly. Good night.

ofblack&white
11:45 PM

AH. As often these days, the inability to sleep when the sky is inky frustrates me. I resorted to playing games, onthephone, books. Sigh. At least still got people to entertain me late at night.


Toss and turn, turn and turn and roll on the bed. STILL CAN'T SLEEP.


Anyway some thinking dawned some light on issues. Haha someone's being too obvious but I don't exactly mind. Oh yea Hamz said last night his bunkmates were getting melancholic and talk about girlzz and apparently tearing?! I hope not! Buncha army guys crying doesna sound right. Lol. He was ecstatic when they cancelled route march for the day. HAHA! Stinky fella must bathe.


Some of the girls had the street match and gotten 3rd! Am proud! ((: But politiks seemed to prevail no matter what, no?


I'm going to spend the day lying on bed, reading books, gaming, maybe phoone, maybe some Add Math, guitar! Well, the gist is, I'm home the whole day lazing and doing nothing at all. Yesterday night (rather wee morning of today) I thought of the Unthinkable. It kinda unnerved me because the Unthinkable wasn't well, possible but it made itself possible yet again. Riddles!
HAHA.




B'Day is a marvellous listen. BUY! (: Good sunny day people. May it rain!

ofblack&white
2:36 PM

I went to eat the famous Geylang chicken rice and it live up to it's name. Went parkway and Dad got a dvd player, good, and only at 89$. Cheap no? Got something for Di before heading to her house. I think I like what I've gotten for her, hence, I feel like buying it. Ya I know, spendthrift.


Went to Di with Naz for a while and head off Tamp. Haha Naz scared of balloons. Don't worry Naz, it's only a balloon. LOL. Hey I got THESE off her blog. I really like them cause they're so model-like (you'll see that it consist of only one whore).
























Like can you STAND that.


Anyway I went Tamp and met up with the elf (: Stupid antics made me laugh. HAHA I KNOW HOW TO BLACK MAIL YOU (clue; the bra). Act shy only. Got to pay my library fines. Some peopl can't talk softly. She's gotten her Adidas Duffel bag which made her look more man. Ok no, joke. It's a unisex bag. Thankfully I psychoed you out from buying the other one. Horrid please!


Walk walk talk talk laugh laugh (you get the gist) and made lots of funneh comments. Maybe it's the elf, I'm not sure, but the bus 3 broke down when you're at the back. LOL classic complete with the black smoke thing. ((:


Out dinner very very soon. Had a nice day (pardon the limited vocab). Love yous.

ofblack&white
8:10 PM

My godbrother told me of tangled lovelife, and I realised how very much his life is to korean dramas. Really. From start till the end (save the part where korean actors are goodlooking? He's not). Haha it's too long a story to narrate here, I tried. But just know that it's lovely.


Besides the point. I'm not here to publicise Mat. I had a wonderful day. (: I was supposed to go back to school but well, being impulsive. Besides, Hamz was out and might as well haha.


I went Tamp and had PizzaHut. (: Best thing of all I didn't spend a dollar today. He's the charming person I still know, though seemed to bit mellow, in more ways than one. HAHA 5BX does wonders eh. Courts, Popular, here and there, Isetan, wander and wonder. ((:
Delightful company.


All in all, day spent with wonderful company. Thank you. (: And he's back in Tekong praying for rain next week, since it's going to be a bad week this coming. CHIN ups! Think Sloggi and Charles&Keith!


Although it's you that calls me everyday, I still feel bad, for you could use that precious hour on studies like er... MATH. HAHA. Stop trying to emulate Einstein. But why must you sleep early today! Haha today is crisis day (as if). Remember to sleep tight as if you're in a coffin (quotes Syahril).


Haha my poor and jobless is no longer poor and jobless, but dyedanddyingfromstanding. Haha! Life's tough but you can do it! Maybe your chances of seeing me on Thursdays will give you motivation? HAHA.


Ok quite a (what Michlai calls) naggy entry. Means it's lengthy lah. Why so chimm. Haha fter that annoying love story, I think I will continue that feeling of mine that burns and never flicker. Wrong, but nice all the same (:

Good night all. But as insomnia goes, I'll be wishing good morning.

ofblack&white
10:33 PM

Screw insomnia. I was feeling weary to the bones yet the eyes and system refuse to shut down, like a fuckedup computer. Only difference is that for the computer, you can pull the plug. I can't on mine.


I hate to lie down in the dark unable to fall asleep and listening to emo songs (since they're fabled to make you sleep, apparently not) and ended up reminscing year one and two with class, soccer, you and a whole lot of shit. Enough to make Naz cry ten buckets, enough to make me tear just a LITTLE. Haha I was so tempted to knock my head with a Longman but sanity stopped me. SHITZ. I should've stick to metal. That made me sleep. Really.


I'm getting the jitters, for Vincent will have his Qualifying Test for A Math in two weeks time. PUSH!



Poor elf lost her pouch but oh well, it's an omen. HAHA. Say somemore lah, talk to me heartpain right. Annoying.


I'll be back school to get a letter, then off Tamp (probably) to meet the army boy. Have a good day world (:

ofblack&white
10:48 AM

Rainy, nice and cosyy. I like!


Spent the whole day at home. Almost. Had my own lunch behind my house, like I used to. (: Walked alone with voices in my head. At liberty to stop and pat a cat anytime. I like, being alone.


Hmm. I'm teaching Anna as well (: Upped my salary for the month. Plus allowance. I've decided to buy the small electronic called PS2 slim, which would deplete my savings by 260$. But I think that's worth it, for it includes modifying, memory cards, and five free games. Screw what they say about PS3. It's so fucking expensive (and the games are original so far) I'd be begging on the street. I'll settle with a PS2. ((:


EH. I haven't buy you your shoes so hang on!


The adult fare currently killed me. 1.60$ from Bedok to AMK. Like what the fuck. Haha I'm so walking to Vincent's house. Sigh. Well, at least it's a straight bus.

I've been playing Prince Of Persia again and it's nice. I yearned for Two Thrones, the last installment. Sigh, see how.

P.S: It's not COFFEESHOP coffee, STARBUCKS. Well lack of gray matter is not something I could blame :p "Go die". I get your point.

ofblack&white
11:04 PM

I felt random right now hence the very random entry.



Often the words/phrases of "you go die", "shut up", "fuck off lah", "dah I don't want to talk to you already", "analyse" and recently "it's a fact" grace my ear for the last half of 2oo6 and now 2oo7. Haha you are the most unexpected friend I've met, although I can read you like cheap plastic (since you said jelly isn't that see through). You can be the annoying, irritated, hot-tempered (when playing sports) flustered person at one moment, yet encouraging funtotease lovable reliable and ALWAYS listening to my laments. ((:


I never expressed my gratitude to you before but you suddenly became significant over the past months with me struggling with the fuckedup A's and very tangled and messy life. Haha I can only type, since you are used to the contumely and the endless barrage of teasing. Verbalising this would only exponentially increase my embarassment and SHYNESS (and definitely humialiate me beyond words).

Thank you for everything. Really. ((: I love you AND YOU OWE ME COFFEE LAH. Don't sound like a donkey anymore ok?

ofblack&white
10:04 PM

Wonderful afternoon/evening yesterday, it is. ((: My nicest firstofjan. HAHA! I had to fly to Johor in the Ford of ours for a small open house at Cik Wahab's, then I met the rest.


Initially meeting at 1530, it was delayed all the way till 1715 (and even then I was late). Haha we met in TOWN, and then we decided to spent our dinner at BEDOK CORNER. Cabbed and spent quite a sum and such. Head to Tamp for nice coffeee. I finally had what I wanted for so long (though the festive season replaced coffee jelly with chocolate chips). But oh well, a frap is a frap. We had the cake! Mango. Of course it's nice. HAHA WE HAD FEEDING SESSIONS. I can't remember who's idea but it was stupid. Strawberry. Only Naz doesn't know the significance of a female feeding a male strawberries. We had to snicker at her innocence.


Neoprints with two boysturningintomensoon is funny (with a girl who gives services at Lorong 8).
ARCADE PLEASE. Airhockey, bishibashi yadayada.


Anyway we spent our time doing what we do best; bitching camwhoring dancing (yes Syahril especially crossing the road) posing politics-ing bickering slandering. Haha I miss them so. We had a thousand and one photos, with quite alot of Syahril looking as if he wants to screw or eat someone, your pick. Hamzah looks cute with his hair and framed specs please! Maybe I'll post it up sometime.


I had Naz staying for the night and she's noisy. Hmm. She wailed and moaned as if she's having sex, so I rolled down on her. DIE NAZ. Scrabbled too. (:


Soccer in the morning (:


Really, you know, what a fantabulous way to start off the year. Like getting 1234894$ cash.
But it could be billions if you were there too.

ofblack&white
4:58 PM